A Reflection from A Former Binge Eater

author/source: Nancy Regan

Photo Courtesy of Anna GuerreroIt is 5:50 pm, I grab the vegetable plate and dip, and head to my car. As I am driving, I tell myself, do not overeat and embarrass yourself. I pull into the driveway where several cars are already filling the limited space. I have arrived at my monthly meeting for the volunteer group I belong to. As I step out of my car, I feel confident that I will not eat too much this time. Everyone is gathered around the beautifully arranged dining room table. I place my dish amongst the overloaded table bursting with food, as though there were thirty people in attendance.

The six of us sit down, as the president begins to speak everyone is reaching for items of food to put on their plates. I take a few of the vegetables that I brought with a little dip. As I am chewing on a carrot stick, my mind reflects to the game Candyland that I played as a child. Around every corner on the board were photos of sweet treats. My eyes scanned the vast amount of sweets, sitting arm’s length away. My mind starts to try and persuade me to just take a couple of sweets, I can control how much I eat.

I ignore the voice in my head for about 10 minutes and then no longer able to stop imagining how good the food would taste, I reach out for a chocolate chip cookie. The cookie is larger than usual and filled with decedent massive junks of chocolate chips. As the first bite hits my taste buds, I am in heaven. How could anything taste Photo Courtesy of Ron Lachso wonderful? As if someone is controlling my arm from afar, I start to reach for more food, I cannot help myself. I continue to fill my plate and stomach for the next two hours of the meeting. I no longer am in control of my actions, instead of slowly chewing my food, I am inhaling it! Once I leave the meeting, I feel sickened, not only to my stomach but out of embarrassment. What does everyone think of me? 

I was not your typical vision of what one would imagine someone with a binge eating disorder to look like. I have never struggled with weight, and I have always exercised. What I did struggle with was my body image, starting in my teenage years. I felt inadequate compared to my peers, which can be typical for a teenager. However, I used food to comfort myself. After years of struggling with body image and binge eating, I am happy to say, I no longer feel less than. I used nature as my healing method. I love my bodyimage and who I have become. I am confident, compassionate and want others to feel more than and not less than adequate. 

 Nancy Regan reflection-from-former-binge-eater


I am Nancy, Integrative Nutrition Health Coach, Reiki Master, public speaker, mother, nature lover, hiker, and motivator who is ready to support you on your Brite Path to physical and emotional wholeness.


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Photo credits: 

Main article's picture: Igor Ovsyannykov @igorovsyannykov 

Article's first picture: Anna Guerrero @iwantpastagram www.iwantpasta.com 

Article's second picture: Ron Lach