Faith and Female Friendships

author/source: Kristine M Callahan

Photo Courtesy of Carolyn-ChristineThe day that I received the most profoundly impactful advice of my life felt quite humbling.  Raquel leaned in, looked me square in the eyes, and asked, “Kris, do you love yourself?” A good long minute of uncomfortable silence passed.  I think my head actually snapped back like I had been physically struck by her words.  I had a gut-punch reaction as I slid back in the leather booth seat, making that noise that only happens when it’s quiet.  I took another sip of my cocktail and geared up for self-protection mode.  “Put that mask back on Kris, she sees right through you”, my inner voice declared- “Game On”!

Leave it to Raquel to completely shift our reunion lunch to a heart-to-heart over salads.  It was not what I expected, but it was what I needed.  I’m grateful to her now, but boy, in that moment I felt exposed as a fraud.  Raquel had been my boss seven years prior, an outstanding mentor and a friend.  I would describe her as blunt, bold, and fearless.  I greatly admire her.  Her intentions were sincere, but I felt judged nonetheless. 

I was a very different person back then, full of fear and lacking faith.  I was masquerading as happy and successful.  In reality, I was juggling a demanding career, caregiving for my mother, and working a side job that I wished was my career.  I appeared to have it all together, successfully hiding the imbalance from most people, but Raquel is not most people.  I had become an over-giving, workaholic, who loved everyone but me.  I could never admit to Raquel that she hit a major nerve.  I lied and told her that in fact, I did love myself.  “Maybe not as much as you love yourself,” I delivered with the sting of Scorpio sarcasm.  Raquel exposed me, and I really hated that.  I also hated that I lived a life that was inauthentic. 

Photo Courtesy of Tanya TrofymchukDuring that lunch, for which I had no appetite, for now, I listened and stored away her sage wisdom about the importance of loving myself.  Raquel and I both knew I was undervalued by the people in my life because I did not love myself.  I grieved the loss of people I couldn’t bear to live without.  I was obese and suffered from low self-esteem.  I lost one hundred pounds after undergoing bariatric surgery.  My blood pressure bottomed out under anesthesia and I had a profound near-death experience (NDE).  The weight loss didn’t boost my confidence or make me happy like I thought it would.  The NDE didn’t miraculously change me into someone who loved and appreciated life.  I continued to struggle. 

When Raquel told me years ago that I could manifest my best life through self-love, I thought I wasn’t worthy.  My faith was weak from victimhood.  With help, I shifted to a survivor.  I achieved a state of harmony and fulfillment.  The unconditional love and support of female friendships led to my transformation.  Gradually healing took hold, I found my faith and successfully transformed my life.  I will always be a work in progress.  Daily I practice metta (loving-kindness), meditation, and self-Reiki.  It has been quite a journey to self-actualization.  I love the quest and teaching others what I have learned along the way.  One of my favorite workshops to facilitate is about establishing healthy boundaries.  It is the ultimate act of self-love. 

Photo Courtesy of Chela BI struggled alone, uphill for so long.  Even though the climb made me stronger, it would have been easier had I removed the mask and asked for help sooner.  Don't be afraid if any of this resonates with you as you read and absorb it.  Find your safe people and reach out.  Surrendering takes trust and practice but it is worth it.  The term “breakdown to breakthrough” comes to mind.  With the support of my female friends, coaches and mentors, I got to the other side of that hill.  They are all amazing women, and I’m so very grateful to each of them.  That side job I mentioned, that’s my private practice now.  I’m blessed to work as a coach and Reiki Master Teacher.  I love the past me, the present me, and intend to embrace the future me with loving-kindness.     

Kristine CallahanAbout Me

For many years I have been working in alternative health/healing alongside my career in geriatrics. has evolved from decades of supporting clients through difficult life transitions. I specialize in stress management including grief work, trauma recovery, addiction recovery, eating disorders, and couples & parent-child healing. Energy medicine including Reiki, Sound Healing, Aromatherapy and more is available to you at my office in Yarmouth Port. Zoom sessions or phone consults are available for those outside the Cape Cod region.

As a Care Consultant with 2Sisters, I support individuals in crisis or planning for the future. Anyone seeking home health care, retirement living, assisted living, or nursing home options is a potential client for us.  We offer fee-based consulting with a wide range of client goals, from aging in place safely at home to preparing long-term care. Please feel free to reach out and inquire about services and fees.

I began my career in senior-related health care in 1999. I am a certified senior advisor, certified professional coach, and certified dementia practitioner.

I served on the Board of Directors for the Estate Planning Council of Cape Cod from 2018-2021.
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