The Wisdom of Your Inner Seasons

Julie Grint
1 day ago
4 min read

The moon showing with a branch of leaves

"Where was I last week?"

That was the question that came to me during meditation.

Not where, as in a location, but where within myself.

Sitting with that, I noticed all the different landscapes I'd been moving through over the past few days. One day, I'd felt washed out. The day before that, I'd been more emotional. I'd also been noticing that internally I felt like I was navigating an autumn transition, despite the solar season leading us into summer.

Today is the full moon. Traditionally, it's associated with outward movement, expression, and emotion - not in a bad way, only if we resist. I tend to use this time to allow internal energy to rise, to let it expand, be expressed, and be released in a healthy way. So there is definitely something being mirrored in my own landscape.

But then there's another layer.

Where I am in my feminine cycle.

Typically, we'd associate the full moon with ovulation and a summer-like energy. Yet internally, I'm sensing more of an autumn quality, that pre-menstrual phase of drawing inward. Again, another valuable clue. Only, at this stage of my life, those clues don't arrive in quite the same way.

At 50, I'm navigating a different landscape. Without a regular menstrual bleed, I listen in different ways - to my energy, my emotions, my body, and the subtle shifts that often speak just as clearly.

Most noticeable this past week has been the change in the composition of my bodily fluids. TMI? Not for me. These are exactly the kinds of clues I've learned not to overlook. I really can't overestimate the value of our symptoms. They're constantly communicating with us.

Photo Courtesy of Srinivas Venduri, Pink girls' bicycle.

Our feminine cycle has become one of my greatest assets.

Seven years ago, it became one of my most valuable guides because I finally began paying attention to it, rather than simply moving through it. Now, even though that landscape has changed, the relationship hasn't. It's simply asking me to listen more deeply.

Perhaps that's why I found it so interesting that, despite the full moon inviting an expansive, summer-like quality, my body was quietly expressing something that felt much closer to autumn.

So what do I do with all of this?

I've got all these observations and insights, but they don't immediately yield a single neat answer. Looking from the outside, it could easily seem like a complete mishmash. No clear direction. No definitive conclusion.

But that's only true if we believe there has to be one.

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Actually, this is incredibly useful.

What we receive from our bodies depends less on what they're saying and more on our ability to listen.

The information is already there. The question is whether we have the awareness to recognise it.

These observations don't limit us. They expand us. They open us up to more possibilities, more understanding, and ultimately more choice.

Some people might wonder, "How do we navigate this?"

I get it! How do we make sense of our experience when the moon is inviting one quality, and our body seems to be expressing another?

But the goal isn't to just work out which season you're in. It's to recognise the qualities that are present, wherever they come from.

Being willing to stay in that unknown is actually incredibly liberating. It's where possibilities exist because you're no longer trying to force yourself into a box. Instead, you begin working with what is actually present. And that's where choice lives.

That's where your relationship with your body deepens. And that's how you become empowered by your own body.

To me, that's what Intuology is.

So back to the question...

Where have I been this week?

Well... it's been hot.

We've had a heatwave, so I've been navigating the external climate. My work schedule changed. My daily rhythm changed. My self-care changed. I had to adapt.

Looking back now, I can see how all of those things influenced my internal landscape.

Without this awareness, I could easily have assumed there was something wrong because I felt unusually tired over the weekend, or frustrated that I wasn't getting as much done. But actually, I'd simply been adapting to my environment.

Sometimes what looks like exhaustion is simply adaptation. Sometimes what feels like losing momentum is actually your body asking for a different rhythm. That's why paying attention matters.

As I write this now, something else has shifted.

With the full moon here, I actually feel as though I've moved through something. I can feel more of that summer quality returning. More light. More expansion.

But autumn hasn't disappeared. Alongside it I'm also noticing a stronger sense of sensuality, which for me carries an autumn quality.

It's fascinating to notice that I'm not experiencing one season or another. I'm experiencing a blend.

External summer.

Internal autumn.

The invitation of the full moon.

Different conversations.

One landscape.

None of these is competing with one another. They're simply different conversations happening within the same landscape. So, rather than deciding which one is right, I have the opportunity to work with all of them.

The full moon invites expression and release. The autumn qualities invite me into deeper sensuality and reflection. Together they offer something richer than either could on their own.

As this week begins, I'm not interested in deciding how I should feel. I'm more interested in meeting whatever arrives. And right now, I feel like a blend of summer and autumn. Light and expression alongside reflection and sensuality. Rather than choosing one over the other, I'm curious about what each has to offer.

So perhaps I'll leave you with the same questions I began with.